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An extraordinary adventure was about to begin. A long way to go, some mountains are to climb, some bridges to cross and then go again straight embracing destiny.
I didn’t know what was in store for me. I guess some bad encounters, maybe some good ones too. Life is full of unexpected surprises.
To be accepted, you’re able to change, to learn, to study, to pass exams, to pay by using your meagre savings training courses you hope for promising results.
Your personality doesn’t change.
You simply try to please to others.
So you show what you have done until then. You try to explain that you worth it. You secretly beg them to look at you and speak to you. Deep down, you’re hoping for a positive response, you pray for it, you cross your fingers, your eyes say « please ».
Despite everything, it’s hopeless. You’ve tried everything for months and years. Your personal value has increased, you became a better person, you know it, you’ve improved yourself. You’ve learned from your mistakes, everything was a good lesson you won’t forget. You did everything you could, everything.
You’re now exhausted, you’ve had enough.
The situation is still the same, tirelessly the same.
You can hear some words from kind people who deigned to smile to you, quite sincerely. At that time, you had a small hope, finally a vain hope, unfortunately.
You keep on learning, reading all kind of books from many interesting and wise authors that inspire you. You’re broadening your horizons and you’re glad of it.
You keep on speaking your mind, sharing your thoughts and feelings, being honest with the others.
At first, you weren’t ashamed to reveal yourself. You thought you could be simply yourself, that’s it, without hiding too much, telling the truth and reality, asking for help and support.
Kindness has its limits. It lasts for a while, you’re happy for a while to receive attention and then, it fades away and you’re back to your situation you know so well and that you’re sick of.
You then try to convince yourself that it will happen again. Kind people are like a relief. You feel less lonely, someone is there thinking of you, listening to you with patience.
Little by little, you feel confident again though you still have nothing in life but you heart and soul. Life is always harsh.
Time flies away, it goes fast. Whereas you expected it, there you are, getting older and still nothing.
You don’t know who you should trust, what risk you can take, what you should try now and it will work. You’re simply thinking about solutions like always.
With time and experience, you know you worth something, your qualities and strengths.
Courage leads you till now. Your heart is brave.
Despite rejections and lack of news and answers, you’re still there.
You don’t want to give up but you want to escape from adversity. Enough of negative in your life, you want happiness. You want love. You want peace.
Why people who own everything, all what you don’t have, would be allowed to love, being happy, having children, home, why should you always looking at them and for politeness, congrat them with smile? When is your turn for God sake?
This situation won’t last forever, right? Everyone, anyone, has one’s chance in life.
All it takes is for one person to notice you for everything to start changing. Just one person, one agreement, one positive answer, one look, one smile, one word, one detail and you’ll be able to change your destiny and get what you’ve always dreamed for.
All you want is that your turn comes and that your life begins. How long should you still wait for it?
How many people in that sad situation? How many people wake up every morning by hoping for more? How many years to be noticed and to become someone?
Someone to be proud of, someone everyone likes, someone that everyone respects, someone that everyone supports, someone needs, sometimes congrats, someone that inspire the others.
The others you envied so much in the past. The others you now know the feelings, the others you wanted to become.
But if everyone become the others, everyone become the same and if everyone is the same, the society, the world, is boring and annoying.
To survive, you thought you had no choice but getting the same as others, fighting for the same but you are you and everyone should be unique and follow their own path.
They say the world is unfair. You should write you own story. If you’re not accepted somewhere, you should go elsewhere. There will be a place you’ll be accepted and feel useful and meaningful.
You should have a goal in life and give a meaning to your own adventure.
In an age when people are pigeonholed and standing out a risk and even a danger, it’s tricky but believe in yourself, in your great potential you know you have.
You shouldn’t become someone else, someone that doesn’t look like you.
Be strong and courageous.
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